Your friend LP

It's been real! 2011 – 2016

Category: Creative Writing

Ch ch changes

When I started this blog 5 years ago, it was the plan to keep it for the three years that my studies would take. As those who have followed my journey know, things have not quite panned out the way I expected them to.

The last 5 years have both been more awful and more awesome than I could have imagined: while my studies were more often than not a huge stressful disappointment and my health issues (culminating in my stroke) were awful, I did get to go to Berkeley, work on my sketchbook projects, do screenprinting, photography and creative writing classes, was admitted to a creative writing MA and for 3 of those years had the luck to have a cat as awesome as Clark living with me.

It had always been the plan to move on to somewhere else after I was done with my studies.

Despite me not having graduated yet, I will indeed be moving on. There are only so many hours in a day/week/month and there are still so many things that I want to do. On top of that, I think this blog has served its purpose. I want to retire it in style, instead of letting it fizzle out.

Fear not, I’m not going to erase anything, this blog will be here for as long as wordpress.com leaves it up. And yes, I will make sure to back it up of course.

My new place will be LPinprogress, a more static portfolio style site where I’ll collect information about my zines, sketchbook projects and other creative activities past and present.

My Instagram, Tumblr and Pinterest will continue to exist in (more or less) their current form, as will my LogPoes email account, zine mailing list, wemakezines profile and my Etsy shop.

Speaking about zines: I have finished the writing for The Wreckage. File under: things nobody expected to happen, ever. I will be writing The Berk next week. If all goes according to plan, they will both be published sometime in September. Yes, 2016. When they are done, I will resume working on the three sketchbook projects, finish them and send them off to Brooklyn.

Thank you, dear reader, for coming along with me on this bumpy ride. For cheering me on and supporting me when times were rough, for being happy for me when things were awesome, and for respectfully and thoughtfully sharing your thoughts, opinions and feelings with me.

Love,
LP

Method writing

In the last two weeks, apart from going on a short holiday and attending a vegan food festival, have been spent working on the final edits of The Zine Formerly Known As Zine #2. The Wreckage, as it is called now, has been long in the making: the happenings described took place from 2011 to 2013, placing it between The Summer and The Berk zine.

On one hand, it’s good to have some distance from the material, especially the things described in The Wreckage, as it deals with a… not so great time in my life. On the other hand, it requires me to delve into a state of mind that I had 3 to 5 years ago, which is 1) more difficult than I thought and 2) draining.

The way I go about it is quite similar to the method acting uh, method, which is effective, but, as stated before, draining. I am hoping to finish this project up this week, so I can start on finishing up less taxing projects like the sketchbooks (for which I received all the photos this week) and the final zine in the trilogy, The Berk.

Breaking news: Class passed!

Yes people, the thing we’ve all been waiting for has happened: I passed yesterday’s class, which means that all that is left to graduate is a thesis! *faints*

Of course said thesis will still be a struggle to complete, but at least I won’t have to worry about having to be healthy on a specific day at a specific time, which saves me a lot of stress. *goes back to Konmari style housecleaning*

Excellent news!!!

Earlier today, I wrote my final exam EVAH on 1 1/2 hours of sleep. Those who follow me on The Gram of Insta have already seen the picture of me right after that exam, but for those who didn’t, here it is:

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Anyway, I then went home for a nap, then had an appointment, returned back home and figured I’d check my email before taking a shower and going to bed…

AND THEN I OPENED MY EMAIL AND OMGWTFBBQ!!! I SAW THAT I’D GOTTEN AN CONDITIONAL OFFER FROM THE LONDON UNIVERSITY I HAD APPLIED TO 10 DAYS AGO WHICH MEANS THAT IF I FINISH MY BA I’M GOING TO BE DOING A CREATIVE WRITING MA DEGREE!!!

For the peeps who know figure skating history: I went completely Rudy Galindo at the US nationals in 1996. For those who have no clue, here’s a video of an awesome person who kept going despite adversity and, oh, just watch it:

The wait is now for the result of this morning’s exam, which can basically torpedo everything when it’s not a 5.5 or above. In the meantime, I’m going to start up the Konmari-style cleaning of my house. But first sleep.

Outcamped

Yup, I’m done with camp:

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Last week, when I was approaching the 10,000 word goal I had set myself, I decided to up it to 15,000 as I was nowhere near done generating everything I wanted to generate. In hindsight, I shouldn’t have done that. I should have forced myself to just be more concise and cut things off at 10,000 instead of then having to force myself to write 5,000 extra words of which I will probably only get to use a 1,000 or so. It’s just not a very efficient way of working. For those noticing the word “forcing”: it is a sad fact that (at this point in my life) I have to pretty much force myself to do anything, creative or otherwise. It gets things done, but it’s not a very fun or satisfying way of working.

I have been in a huge funk in general these days, mostly frustrated and bored with my entire existence, both online and off. This is usually a sign that I’ve been spending too much time at home and too much time Thinking, so my plan is going to be to leave the house a bit more in the coming weeks, see some art, meet some peeps, pet some cats.

How this year was (recap time!)

Fear not, I am well aware of the fact that today is not Sunday. I was however waiting for all my grades and points to be registered before writing my annual “How this year went” post, as I did not want to jinx things, and for reasons unknown it took until today for that to happen. The registering, not the jinxing. It’s safe to assume the teachers were also struck by the Horrid Heat™ we had around here last week.

The excellent news is that I have passed all my classes. All together now: yay! This means that in the coming academic year, I will only have to write my thesis and take philosophy of science, and I’ll be done.

This academic year was the most, for lack of a better word, enjoyable to date: I was reasonably healthy (no huge health issues) and therefore managed to adhere to all my deadlines without having to ask for any extensions. It was of course still too much work, way too fragmented and hardly ever in depth enough for me, but I realise that I’ve gotten better at just accepting that this is the way things are during this phase in my life, and that it’s not going to be like this forever.

The fact that I wasn’t sick and/or exhausted all the time made it a lot easier to deal with the occasional frustration and sense of “this is all SO useless” that I did feel, and it also made managing my exam terror about 97% easier. On top of that, I even got to do things that I actually enjoy: a linguistic research project, acting (using this word very loosely) and writing. If all else fails, I can – and will! – use the fact that I was part of the first creative writing class ever taught at the UvA as my claim to fame.

For the next semester, I’m hoping to keep up the good health and good work. In the next few weeks I will be working on projects that I did not get to during the year, work in progress posts with pictures will follow as always.

Camp NaNoWriMo

All together now to the tune of “Timber“: “It’s going DOWN! We’re going CAMPIIIIIIINGGG! Eat virtual smores, have lots of fun!” Is it obvious that I’m really looking forward to Camp NaNoWriMo this year?

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If anyone reading this is also participating and looking for a cabin, we still have room in ours, so hit me up either in the comments or by emailing me at LogPoes@gmail.com. Updates about my progress and such will of course follow during the month!

My Creative Writing Portfolio Adventure

And I’m back! I had planned for this post to go up last week, but after finishing up my portfolio I still had exams to prepare and proposals to write and then it was today already!

So, my portfolio. For my creative writing class I was expected to hand in a portfolio consising of 20 – 30 A4 pages of writing, a two page process reflection, and of course an index and a title. It also said that while not obligatory, nice paper and such was appreciated, so I of course went on a trek to my dear friends at Vlieger Papier. At first I thought I would just put my portfolio in a regular binder, but then I saw a green art-portfolio thing and this happened (as usual, all pictures can be embiggened by clicking on them):

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The green thing is an art portfolio/travel folder, you know, the type you transport drawings in, or fancy paper. I decided to get the attachable clip thing pictured above right and attach it to the folder.

On the bottom right you can see how I measured out where the clip had to be attached by using a piece of paper with hole punches in the right location. As you can also see, I had some issues adjusting my hole punch, resulting in useless holes on the right.

The funky tool thing is my awl, or “pointy piercy thing, you know, for paper things” as I usually call it. The white thing on top of it is a piece of foam to avoid having the pointy piercy thing pointily piercing my hand when I pick it up from the box I keep it in. The piece of foam is also the home of both my bookbinding and weave sowing needles.

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After measuring out the holes, I punched them with my awl (photo left), widened the holes (not pictured), put the screw-like thing through (top right) and then literally hammered the clip onto the folder.

This took some force, generated by anger and frustration I felt over at that point not having written my second story while the deadline was a mere 9 hours away. This is also why I have no pictures of the actual writing or printing, as I ended up priting everything at 16:00, when the deadline was at 17:00 and I still had to travel for 30 minutes. #livingontheedge

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Thankfully public transport was on my side and I got to the Bungehuis at 16:45, where I proceeded to finish up the assembly of my portfolio. As you can see in the picture on the left, I had not only taken my folder and my printed out materials, but also my hole punch, tape and a piece of cardboard, and got to work.

After almost breaking my hole punch due to forgetting that I had chosen to use fancy eco-friendly 120 grams off-white paper instead of regular 80 grams paper, I ended up with a neat little pile of hole punched fancy eco-friendly 120 grams off-white paper topped off with a ultra-fancy kinda-expensive handmade off-white cotton-based paper cover sheet. Because I’m hardcore like that. The heart covers my IRL name and such, fear not: there is not actually a giant red heart on my cover page.

In the picture on the right you see the finished product: the cardboard wraparound has my name and the teacher’s name on the other side, and a piece of orange “Fragile” tape on the back. I then put it in my teacher’s pigeonhole and checked the time: 16:53. I did a “Yesss!” like I’d just won something and proceeded to call my mom, whose sigh of relief could be heard down the hall.

Only in my brain

Does this

combined with this

inspire a short story for my creative writing portfolio due tomorrow. That I still need to write, like, right now. Wish me luck! 😀

Short round up/update

Despite being three days late, this post will be a short one as I am taking a break from studying linguistics for tomorrow’s exam. For all the people thinking “I am sick and tired of hearing about your studies!”: so I am. Unfortunately, not much else happens around here at the moment, well, except for cat snuggling and sleep.

Let’s see: since the write-a-ton, I have finished a 2500 word final and a review for one class, a 3000 word final for another, and played Hamlet, of Hamlet fame. While probably not as convincing as my MacBethian witch last year, there was applause and nobody threw things at me, so I’ll just consider it a success.

In the coming 5 days, I will have 2 two hour exams and I will need to finish up my 30 page writing portfolio by writing a 15 page story. I will also be crafting a folder in which said portfolio will be presented, I will of course take pictures that I will post here later. When all that is done, I will “only” have to rewrite my proposal, read a 600+ page book, write an abstract about it and then do a presentation about it, and that will be it for this year. Unless I have resits of course, but I haven’t had any results from anything yet, so I’m not worrying about that right now. And back to studying linguistics I go!