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It's been real! 2011 – 2016


In the last few weeks, I have visited a couple of exhibitions. The first one (pre-hospital) was the “David Bowie is” one at the Groninger Museum. I had wanted to see it in London in 2013, but was unable to, since I was travelling to Berkeley that summer. *coughgodIsoundlikeanassholecough* Thankfully, I then learned that it was going to travel to Groningen, which is about 2 1/2 hours away from where I am, so as soon as the tickets went on sale, I snipered two of them: one for me and one for The Big Kahuna, aka my mom. This was sometime in November, way before he and Clark made a pact to leave this earth on sorta kinda the same day and go chill out together somewhere. File under: ways in which I try to cope with Clark’s death.

Anyway, enough about me. It was not allowed to take pictures, so the only picture I have is of the David Bowie cake type thing TBK had after the show:

Bowie cakeHow awesome? So awesome!

The next exhibition I dragged myself and TBK to, was the Covert to Overt – photography of Obey Giant by Jon Furlong one at the Melkweg Galery. I was fresh out of the hospital and too tired to live, but since this show was only going to be on for three days, I schlepped myself down there and took some pictures: click! More info about this exhibit can be found here.

And last but not least: Catwalk at the Rijksmuseum! Info about tickets and such can be found on their website, it is still on until the 16 of May. My pictures, with relevant and not so relevant captions, can be found here. Enjoy!


Unholy laughter

A thing that has most definitely not changed around here, is my inability to judge how long it takes me to select pictures and write captions. Having shuffeled (you really can’t call it walking) to not one but two exhibitions in the last week, I had hoped to share a couple of shots I’ve taken, but that’s still a work in progress that I’m hoping to get done sometime tomorrow.

To make up for this, have a video that has, since my introduction to it in the summer of 2011, been my go to in case of feeling Le Miserable. Yes, I think this is funny to the level of literal tears streaming down my face. Yes, you can judge me for basically having the sense of humor of a 14 year old boy, I judge myself for that too on occasion. Usually when I’m not semi-dying of laughter at this video:


*brb forming a band again*

Hi! I’m back!

The peeps who (also) follow me on Instagram┬áalready know why I have been absent here in the last few weeks: on March 1, I woke up with the mother of all headaches. It was so bad I had problems seeing, reading and even speaking, so I thought it was a migraine, but it turned out to have been a very light stroke caused by my pre-existing blood pressure issues. At least, that’s their working diagnosis for now: being a zebra, this could of course still change.

I spent 8 days in the hospital, where they stuck all kinds of needles in me and put me on half a pharmacy’s worth of medication to lower my ridiculously high (at it highest 243/185!) bloodpressure, which in turn resulted in me being able to see and speak again like I used to. The relief I felt when I woke up and saw my world was “normal” again was almost religious, and I am not much of a spiritual person.

I am now recuperating at home, still on half a pharmacy’s worth of medication. Apart from post-hospital check ups, they’ll also be performing tests on me to see how my heart and kidneys are doing, as both had quite a beating and are doing so so, which worries me more than I let on. Simultaneously, they are trying to find out why this happened again, as not only can bloodpressures this high not supposed to happen in general, they are most definitely not supposed to happen when you’re on blood pressure medication, which I was.

Thankfully, medicine has advanced significantly in the last 8 years, so it could be that this time, they will actually find an underlying syndrome or disease that explains my issues. And while I’d of course prefer to be healthy, since I am not, I would prefer hearing “You have [insert disease], which we will treat like this” than “There most definitely is something wrong with you, but we have no idea what, so we’ll just treat you trial and error style”, which I have been told for way too long now.

Regarding this blog and my other online hangouts, I am slowly but surely getting back to my regular posting schedule, but if I am missing in action once in a while, at least you’ll know why. ­čÖé

Zine/sketchbook news

Finally, after about 8 million years, some zine news: I have resumed work on The Wreckage, zine #2 in ~the trilogy~! Having read through all the material, I have distilled which topics are going to be featured in what order. Well, sorta kinda, I assume some switching around will happen, but at least I have a general idea. In the coming week(s), I will be editing down the heap of words into readable “chapters”, and then hopefully get to the layout phase and finally finish it and move on to the final installment of ~the trilogy~.

I am trying to get them done quickly not only because I have been working on them for so long and need to get the momentum back, but also because I still have three different Sketchbook Project projects lying around that I would like to finish up. Only one of them has a deadline, thankfully. The biggest challenge will be finding the folder in which I put them (and the notes/ideas I already had for them), as my house is still a lot on the messy side and I seem to have misplaced… everything. I will of course, as always, keep you updated. ­čśÇ

About cats

The wonderful combo of Post Performance Depression, The Sick, and The Sad (RIP Clark) kept me in bed the last week and a half, but today I’m slowly getting back to my life. Since apparently everybody including my thesis advisor is sick, I have not started work on that yet, but I have thrown out two huge grocery bags of papers I won’t be needing anymore, so the de-thrashheapification of my house has officially started. Apart from that, I’ve been listening to a whole lot of One Direction, really.

It has now been a month since Clark’s death and I’m only now starting to deal with it. Him being the quiet type of cat made it easier for me to just ignore the situation a little (the good old “he’s just in the other room” tactic), but during my sickness I realised that, yup, I’m all alone and nope, he’s not coming back and yup, that sucks.┬áUnfortunately, unlike with my hip that is giving me GRIEF right now, I can’t just go to the chiropractor to get my heart unstuck. How awesome would it be if you could just do that?

To end this post on a happier note, I have been playing a whole lot of Neko Atsume, and while they’re not real cats, they do fill the cat shaped void a tiny bit. Especially the fact that they bring you mementos that are completely useless (a damp matchbox, anyone?) is super endearing to me. *checks app obsessively*

Breaking news: Class passed!

Yes people, the thing we’ve all been waiting for has happened: I passed yesterday’s class, which means that all that is left to graduate is a thesis! *faints*

Of course said thesis will still be a struggle to complete, but at least I won’t have to worry about having to be healthy on a specific day at a specific time, which saves me a lot of stress. *goes back to Konmari style housecleaning*

Excellent news!!!

Earlier today, I wrote my final exam EVAH on 1 1/2 hours of sleep. Those who follow me on The Gram of Insta┬áhave already seen the picture of me right after that exam, but for those who didn’t, here it is:


Brought to you by Brinkadeth productions.

Anyway, I then went home for a nap, then had an appointment, returned back home and figured I’d check my email before taking a shower and going to bed…


For the peeps who know figure skating history: I went completely Rudy Galindo at the US nationals in 1996. For those who have no clue, here’s a video of an awesome person who kept going despite adversity and, oh, just watch it:

The wait is now for the result of this morning’s exam, which can basically torpedo everything when it’s not a 5.5 or above. In the meantime, I’m going to start up the Konmari-style cleaning of my house. But first sleep.

New York meets the Dam exposition

For those who like graffiti & street art, here on my Flickr┬áthere’s a short impression of the “New York meets the Dam” expo currently (until 24 January) happening at the Amsterdam Museum.

Clark Cat passed away this morning

I was going to post street art pictures today, but they will have to wait until next week, as my dear cat Clark passed away this morning.

Clark + Me

2016 – The Pre-Cap

Happy 2016 everybody! I figured that in a world in which the Star Wars franchise gets sequels and prequels, I could have my own pre-cap. So here’s what I’ll be doing in the next few months:

  1. This month, I will be writing the final two exams of my studies, after which I only need to write my thesis to graduate. I have decided that if I for some reason do not pass these two exams, I will be quitting my studies. I have apparently gone through all the Stages of Grief and have reached the “I don’t give a flying f*ck anymore, I just want my life back come February 1”-stage.
  2. Once February happens, independent of potential thesis writing, I will be cleaning out my house Marie Kondo style. I am sick and tired of living in a crypt surrounded by Stuff From The Past/Stuff For A Future That Never Materialised. I am planning to get rid of at least half of the things that are currently in my house. I will of course donate everything useful and recycle everything that is broken.
  3. Despite planning and some progress, I still have about 3 zines and 3 sketchbooks that are Not Finished Yet. I will finish them in the month of March, then go on a Sketchbook/zinewriting hiatus as I re-evalue my ~creative existence~: do I care enough about my ~creative existence~ to be a 40+ year old person who writes and glues stuff together that nobody cares about (see also: the piles of my own zines on my cupboard), or should I maybe do something else with my time, money and energy?
  4. Re-evaluate my life in general, to see if the constant feeling of “I feel stuck!!!” subsides once my studies are over, or if I need to make other adjustments in my life too.
  5. Try not to fall apart completely and turn into a non-functioning mess once Clark (my cat, he has terminal cancer) dies. As you can imagine, this point will be the hardest to manage. I’m not sure I will. Manage, that is.

I have already started studying for my exams, so point 1 is on its way. Next week I will finally post a photo set of an exhibition I went to in November(!), peeps who love graffiti/street art should definitely be stoked! *studies some more*